it was all a matter of individual conditioning…individual attitudes
that anyone could decide when to turn and declare enlightenment

this was my freedom for the mind to play games
or the fear to stop going deeper and declare the experience
the ego knows how to hide deep in the basement of the unconscious

i was aware
and aware of his concern for my completion
this is his compassion to guard me closely and guide me lovingly

i was becoming a mature devotee
i was in love with bhagwan
i had completely forgotten and dropped my enlightenment
there was more to dive into…there was more to rediscover
i was under his wings warm and cosy

my love for him was far greater
i was another mahakashyap to be

i went deeper into the black hole
this was the final frontier
searching
the ultimate truth

what is omnipotent…omnipresent…omniscient
indestructible…pervades all…knows all
no taste…no smell…no touch…no sound…no sight
cannot be created was always present…nor destroyed will always remain
beyond space…beyond time
fathomless…immeasurable
has its own source of light…eternal

the black hole…was the unknowable…the ultimate mystery

i had begun understanding what had happened
light can only be perceived from the dark
the experience of an atomic explosion of light
light exploding everywhere
was seen from within the black hole

the inner experience black…the outer experience light
nirvana…the cessation of the flame…the outer the eternal flame

the black hole…the very inner core of being