the ashram management made it clear to all sannyasins staying there
to boycott the hotel as talera was not agreeing to sell it at their offered price
as i was told by talera they had threatened to shut down his hotel
talera was a very simple man…he had many such properties
and was actually offended by the aggressive manner the offer was made
and when talera made his offer the management immediately rejected
the price with threats of shutting down his business
he confided in me that he was shocked at the dirty arm twisting tactics
the ashram management made in their attempted buy out

during these days i was informed by the ashram office
that i was ordered to leave the hotel that same day or face banning
i promised that i would find another room somewhere in a few days
to which they retorted that i had only one day and that was that
negative no sayers were not tolerated here

the next few days i went looking around for a room
in places and areas where sannyasins stayed
lakshmi villas rooms were not given to indians
another area near riverside again no rooms and this went on and on
i found a small hut area where an indian sannyasin rented rooms
where i was violently told they were against me and did not want
my bad energy to be there…i was not able to locate another room
for atleast six days and had to meanwhile stay in sunderban

i was stopped at the gate and called to a meeting
told i had received their warning to leave sunderban
which i had disobeyed and was banned from the ashram
i pleaded that i had been searching for the past six days and unable
to find a room to which they said that it was my problem
that i was not with bhagwan and his wishes and not to come back
that i was given my chance and it was over

i could speak a book on just the shocking encounters
and horrific experience i have gone through with sannyasins
especially the ones who were closest to him
but abstain as i accept them just the way they are
they will only reap what they sow

they have this much freedom as far as i am concerned
the freedom to create or destroy themselves

but not the freedom to destroy others
this is trespassing into the sacred fire of the other
and his inner spiritual journey

bhagwan has repeated many many times
do not interfere into anyones freedom
and do not allow anyone to interfere with your freedom

i see the second to be more important today
to allow others to interfere with your freedom
is to be a passive participant
to watch others bully an innocent person and remain silent
is to directly participate in the crime

that power corrupts and total power corrupts totally
the powerful dominate by banning those they cannot control
make them live in fear of banning so they become obedient slaves

banning sannyasins is the dirtiest and lowest form of blackmail

the sannyasin is vulnerable
simply because he does not want to leave the presence of bhagwan

they are playing with his love for bhagwan
using this as a tool against him
how much lower can one stoop