i saw all this did not fit with bhagwan and his compassionate way
this was blackmail and bullying
using power and muscle to push out the weaker

though i had nothing to gain from either side
i was with talera and ashamed the ashram was using dirty methods

if they used their power and financial blackmail to push talera out
where lay the difference when the american politicians pushed bhagwan out…the same dirty politics as far as i was concerned

this was shameful in my eyes
and i knew that a buddha would never behave in such ugly manner
in my eyes the ashram management was blackening
the face of bhagwan and his message of love and compassion

talera and i agreed that if they began their meeting
with softness and consideration he would agree to sell
if they started with aggression he would refuse
this was our secret understanding
we were waiting and watching

the whole deal would hinge on this

five people arrived…angry to see me sitting with talera
they felt their boycott had made him more agreeable
and were arrogant in their approach to him

talera refused to sell…not even for double the price
and this was the end of their meeting…talera would not budge
they could boycott the hotel
and till today the hotel stands as his property

to me even to this day i consider that i upheld my masters face
and my intervention will one day be understood as being on the path
a rebellious spirit…truth and justice comes first
even if i have to fight my own people…truth stands above

bhagwan blessed me and saw my victory
i was being prepared to face and challenge
the countless more powerful bullies that i would soon meet
when i took his flame into the world

i have never respected nor surrendered to power and domination
i bow and surrender only to love and compassion

i returned my sannyas with a note saying
that i was to remain alone on the path
and forever his devotee

the next few days i was met with a serious threat
while walking on the ashram street at night a sannyasin man
rushed towards me showing me a knife with threats to have me finished
that i was given notice to leave poona or would be taken care of
that they would break my bones…my legs

now they had challenged my spirit
i was planning to leave poona
but now it was a completely different matter
i never leave under any threat
and now decided to stay and see what they could do