i miss bhagwan and know that i need to go back
under his loving care and to go deeper into my journey

i have become much stronger in my body
my roots have grown deeper and the trunk wider and thicker
i feel taller and wider
my walk is slower but a heavy sense of presence gravitates around me

i am prepared and ready to go back to the poona ashram
i am certain that with such intense training
and my new found taoist approach of being invisible
i would manage and test myself with my new experience

the poona ashram had many who attacked me
but there were many who loved me too

they were in the silent minority
who simply smiled or looked silently at me passing by
or came and said hello to move on unnoticed by others
there were many who secretly wished they could be close to me
and ask me about my experiences but were afraid to be noticed by others

the silent understanding sannyasins had one common factor
they were silent and understanding
and not wanting to get into trouble

the ones in power and management had one common factor
they were always pushing themselves onto others
and were loud and vocal in their opinions

i knew who were spreading the poison and from where my troubles arose
i knew each one and silently watched their actions against me